Dear Old Me,
I am a little confused as to what is going on. My bank card that once use to buy me all the wonderful things my heart desires, now buys groceries and pays bills. My high heels that use to once tear up the dance floor, now help to clean floors and other messy things. My body that I kept in shape was to strut my stuff for others, now is kept in shape for my husband. I once was able to come home at one or two in the morning or later, now I am home to have dinner on the table by six. Once night outs consisted of restaurants and other crazy places with crazy people,now consist of night ins with family (though I do love being with my family). Knowing what the latest issues are going on on the hills is now knowing whats going on with the family, and planning my whole social week is now planning when bills must be paid and who to go see and what to do. WHAT HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For some odd reason I am in mourning of my old life. I do the same things, and I am the same person but I seem to do them in a more meaningful form. Lately I have been feeling very very sad. I am not one that takes change easily. For me it is extremely hard!
I made the best decision I ever could of made by marrying my husband. I made a very very very good decision, and I have been richly blessed. So why do I feel sad?
I finally came across a talk that pulled me out of my sadness. It was a message in the ensign by Elder Steven E. Snow called Get On With Our Lives. It saved me. It helped me come to an understand that change is so good and it is part of Heavenly Fathers Plan.
Marrying the love of my life has helped me to become a milestone closer to who I am to become, and I am so very grateful.
So to the old me. I will always have wonderful memories but I look forward to the many more I will have as my life goes on.
I will still be me, but with each year that comes I will become a better me.
With all my love,
Me
Love your post. It's refreshing to see someone who can be honest with themselves about the changes in one's life. It has nothing to do with how much we love the one we married and committed ourselves to. It shows that we like/love ourselves, that is a good thing!
ReplyDeleteI was shocked when I married and stayed home instead of going to work everyday. My SIL's and neighbors saw a lot of me when I wasn't striping wallpaper and getting ready for our first baby!
Love it! Love it! :) Thanks for sharing. It is so good to check in with ourselves. We change, we grow. We need to stop and see if the progress we are making is good, or if we have back-tracked. What we find with effect how we proceed. I love having you in the family. Thanks for letting me eat next to you tonight! ;)
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